Pro-Choice and Married

Here is my story, please consider it for your website so that women who think abortion is a good option may rethink their choices. I have always thought myself pro-choice and thought the pro-lifers were wrong. But after my first and only abortion 9 weeks ago, I have an entirely different view. My story is strange because for more than a year, my spouse and I were trying to get pregnant. Our only child, now 3, was born 7 weeks early and even though we knew there were risks, we so wanted just one more baby. But, when infertility treatment got more serious, we consulted with a specialist who said we had an 80-90% chance of only getting to 33 weeks again. We stopped infertility treatment and stupidly didn't use any birth control. I was amazed to be pregnant and very afraid. My husband and I went back and forth, trying to decide what was best. I even backed out of my first abortion appointment but 1 week later went ahead. I never knew how terrible a choice that would be. The procedure was much more painful than the clinic said, I was practically screaming, nothing has ever hurt so much. Even a friend who had an abortion a few years ago said "it was like going to the dentist". what a lie that was and I am not friends with her anymore. This is the worst thing a person can choose to do, I willingly killed my baby. She wasn't' taken from me, I ended her life. Because of the complications and early birth of my toddler, I...